|I feel like Elliot|
Can I help?
Well, God totally provides. He has sent an army of people to help me (because let's face it, I am clueless), and they have just taken off running. Emails and envelopes and shoes and items and give aways...amazing but out of my control..and boy, do I like control. Whether I feel comfortable with it or not, those friends are going for it. They are bringing Yana and Alex home while Adam and I sit on the fence, freaked out and embarrassed.
God are you sure we are called to do this? The fundraising makes my skin crawl.
Then the next morning, I get a 4:30am wake up text. It's Alex.
He and his 17 year old friend are being sent to some "health" camp for 23 days. Why? You are healthy...Who is going? Is Yana going too? When do you leave? What about school? Why only boys? What's going on?
He arrived today and he sent me a message saying that it is a poor camp and that he will not be able to talk to me much.
OK God, let's get them out of there.
Embarrassing and overwhelming as the fundraising is...we are getting them home. Period.
I am actually a huge chicken! I will not watch scary movies (I didn't even finish Goonies, I was so freaked out). I do not like the dark. I hate going over bridges when driving. And I am totally terrified by heights.
I am not brave. I am very normal and actually kinda on the weird side. But, by the grace of God I am at peace with the traveling and how our lives are going to change because of this decision.
There were a lot of hard things about this summer, which now I know was the trailer to my-soon-to-be movie. There were a lot of tantrum from all four kids, and a few from me.
There was tons of going, going, going. A lot of "just put it on the credit card." Trying to entertain a 16 year old, 12 year old, 5 year old and 3 year old all at the same place.
But not even a single lemon rind or apple core was wasted this summer. I am not kidding, they would eat the whole thing... seeds, stem, everything...and not a single minute was spent not growing as family. We learned from, empathized with and loved each other.
But he is coming home.
Yes, he is coming home (just not yet).